Hope’s Final Wish

This is a lonely journey I have to say the least

I give something yet nothings returned

I give everything that hope has yearned for

But it does not even keep its own promises

Go get heaven's grace as I will not follow

I will journey into the path I have already carved with my heart

My feet are still weak from the words that my ears cannot hear

I still stand here not moving because I am not sure

Your reckless smile only tells me that you're truly a liar

You wanted to have me believe that my tears are still flowing

Yet you forget that they have already hit the ground

It pains me to say that I will still stand here

And turn my back against your words only to face the meaning of them

If you want heavens grace go get it

Because I will not follow you

Our heads clash yet we forget that our hands grace one another

We take two steps not knowing our hearts have already taken three

This is not a tale of love

If it were then my soul would be at ease

As I do not know that word and it does not know me

So leave me be as I want to climb upon the pedestal

And reach above the mountains

So my fall will be greater

Knowing that nothing will catch me

Except my eyes when they awaken from that dream

Why do you still pester me?

You persist yet you do nothing

The eyes that I have do not belong to you

As you once wished they did

I don't understand you

Even when I am blind

You can still see me

Though I'm trapped inside

I know that you are staring at me

So why do you keep looking

Only to find that all this time I was hiding in a shell

Is that what you were looking for?

You say that you never wanted heavens grace

Because you knew I would not follow

You smile at me knowing that you found something that even I couldn't find

Me

Why did you look?

Why did you want to look?

I myself have tried to keep it away

Yet you still found it

You tell me that I am actually heaven's grace?

Then I guess I did follow you

I can only smile knowing that I am a fool

Because of you

I am now on the ground

Cleaning up my tears that you told me were still flowing

And you were right

Because they were your tears

Not mine

So thank you

You have made me find myself again

Therefore I shall close my eyes

Knowing that I can soar above the mountains

Thinking of what you did for me

Now I shall return the favor

And try to find you, just as you found me

~Conscious